The story of my life (part 13- Disfellowshipped)

by onacruse 8 Replies latest jw friends

  • onacruse
    onacruse

    So here I was, in my late 20s, and in the late 1970s, disfellowshipped.

    To offer a bit of perspective: being DFd then was not like it had been before, or since. For a period of several years (1973-1980, as I recall), the WTS had "lightened up" on the amount of communication that was "allowed" between DFd people and other JWs, especially when it was family. In fact, it was tantamount to 'if you can talk them back in, then go for it.' And boy-o-boy, did a lot of people try to talk me back in! Almost daily conversations, especially with my Mom. Same old issues, same old patronizing responses...it went nowhere.

    Now, to again be very candid with you: During this period I went through what some have imo quite properly described as a "delayed teenage rebellion" episode. I tried several drugs (after all, I'd "verified" by my experiment with tobacco that the WTS doctrine was wrong...right?): cocaine, marijuana, LSD, mushrooms--though I never used a needle. In retrospect, I can honestly say that I was simply experimenting with things that had always been forbidden. However, I quickly found myself bored with the experiences that those physical substances provided; there was something missing.

    In any case, it probably doesn't need to be said that I was not much of a husband during that time; the people I hung out with were not exactly what you'd call the "Christian type," and though I loved my wife, at this point we had very little in common: no shared religion, no common activities, not much intimacy. We became very distant from each other. I say this here because it sets part of the stage for the next couple of years.

    However, one fact remained: there were only a couple of "worldly" people with whom I developed any kind of bond: one turned out to be a shyster, and one is a close friend to this day. Not much of a social life, eh? So, I began to feel more and more lonely for the comraderie and community spirit in which I was raised, and gradually began to override the "logical" objections I had with the WTS, in favor of again having that close-knit feeling of belonging. So, I initiated a request to be reinstated.

    The elders were extremely happy to accept my request, and thus begins the next chapter.

    PS: Sorry for the abbreviated sequences...I could say much more, but I'm just doing a first plod through a complicated life; I never kept a diary! LOL

    PPS: For those of you who've asked if you can share my story (such as it is) with others--I wouldn't be posting it on a discussion board unless I expected, and even hoped, that it would be shared. As I said early on: if only one JW can be helped by me sharing my experiences, then it is all worth it.

  • Legolas
    Legolas

    Can't wait for part 14!

  • Robdar
    Robdar

    Craig, I've been sharing your story with my parents. We are looking forward to the next installment.

  • jgnat
    jgnat

    Thanks, Craig. You are leaping through the years, now.

    Exiting JW's today have so many more chances for normalcy. They can connect with others who share their experience. How much you want to bet that the return rate from DF'ing is dropping? Long live the web!

    P.S. Your experimentation - very Solomon-like! LOL. My rebellion, aside from the teen pregnancy, was much more low-key. I tested out all my mom's old wives tales (Don't cross your eyes or they will get stuck like that. Wear grandma-cotton underwear or you will get a disease.)

  • alw
    alw

    Eager anticipation ........................alw

  • stillajwexelder
    stillajwexelder

    began to override the "logical" objections I had with the WTS, in favor of again having that close-knit feeling of belonging. So, I initiated a request to be reinstated.

    This I FULLY understand

  • ziddina
    ziddina

    bump

  • l p
    l p

    Where is the other parts of the stories???? you can't leave us hanging.....

    Lp

  • Phizzy
    Phizzy

    I expect Zid will post them, I found them by clicking on his username. For the Happy Ending, read his post "Happy Anniversary", towards the end of his posts.

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