finishing the year in style

by fullofdoubtnow 4 Replies latest jw friends

  • fullofdoubtnow
    fullofdoubtnow

    Well, it's December 31st, so happy new year everyone

    As I look back on the last 12 months and how much has changed in my life, I can hardly take it all in. At the start of this year, I was still very much a jw, though having more than a few doubts. I was basically unhappy with my job and with my life in general. I looked towards 2005 with pessimism.

    Now, as 2006 looms, I have just been offerred a better job at the place where I work (start 9th Jan),

    I am no longer a jw, I have cast off the shackles of a lying, manipulative cult that held me in bondage for over 20 years.

    I am making a new life, with real friends, not conditional ones who desert me when I no longer share their beliefs.

    I have found this board, which has helped me in more ways than I have words to describe.

    I am happier now than I have been in many, many years, and can look to the future with optimism.

    For the first time for longer than I care to remember, I am in love

    So bring on 2006, it's gonna be my best year ever

    love, Linda

  • ballistic
    ballistic
    For the first time for longer than I care to remember, I am in love

    I want to break free
    I want to break free
    I want to break free from your lies
    You’re so self satisfied I don’t need you
    I’ve got to break free
    God knows God knows I want to break free

    I’ve fallen in love
    I’ve fallen in love for the first time
    And this time I know it’s for real
    I’ve fallen in love yeah
    God knows God knows I’ve fallen in love

    It’s strange but it’s true
    I can’t get over the way you love me like you do
    But I have to be sure
    When I walk out that door
    Oh how I want to be free baby
    Oh how I want to be free
    Oh how I want to break free

    But life still goes on
    I can’t get used to living without living without
    Living without you by my side
    I don’t want to live alone hey
    God knows got to make it on my own
    So baby can’t you see
    I’ve got to break free

    I’ve got to break free
    I want to break free yeah

    I want I want I want I want to break free....

  • Dansk
    Dansk

    CONGRATULATIONS, LINDA!

    Yes, when one finally breaks free of the cult it's like a mammoth weight has been removed off one's shoulders. Admittedly there's some fear at first, but once one realsies the fear is of our own making the sense of relief and freedom is, well, just indescribable.

    I wish I could get my younger daughter to read your post as it contains things that I really would like her to understand. For the moment I am treading carefully because I don't want her to think of me as a bitter apostate (she is living back home with us but still has her JW head on, though it is more relaxed at present).

    I am so pleased at your progress. You have a wonderfully bright unblighted future ahead of you now. Go for it..............

    Love,

    Ian

  • fullofdoubtnow
    fullofdoubtnow

    Thanks Ballistic, that is just about the perfect song, it sums up my year as well as any I could think of.

    Ian, I wish you well with your daughter, what got through to me more than anything wasn't what anuone said, it was more how they acted, in particular dedpoet. It was so obvious to me that he was so much happier after he left the jws than he ever was in them, though the witnesses always say no - one can be happy once they have lost the truth. It was that, more than anything he said, that persuaded me to look into things more deeply, and here I am, happy, free and normal!

    all my love

    Linda

  • lucifer
    lucifer

    congratulations linda!!! hope you have a fun time bringing in the new year tonight and it soundslike 06 is off to a great start for ya

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