by joelbear 6 Replies latest jw friends
48 years
great times with good friends many many many of those = sweet
for a variety of reasons they are unaccessible to me now = bitter
to survive its really necessary for me to start over once again.
i've done it twice before, once at 20 and once at 30, if i start now maybe my new life will be in full swing by 50.
to survive its really necessary for me to start over once again.i've done it twice before, once at 20 and once at 30, if i start now maybe my new life will be in full swing by 50.
I'm going thru this myself.
I view it almost as a molting process, we are not meant to be the same person at 20 as we are at 30/40/50 etc. We change who we are and what is important to us. It is bittersweet and scary and exciting all rolled into one.
Dams
I know what you mean, Joelbear. We were just talking about that very subject yesterday. I'm getting tired of starting over. Every time I readjust my thinking, it seems to bring about physical changes in my life that I have to adjust to. New routines and new people.
Cellist
For those fully alive, perhaps this type of pain is a part of it. I have been brought into the same type of thoughts - thoughts of long lost friends and relatives brings feelings of isolation and loss. How to deal w it? Perhaps by attempting to think more in the moment and in the present location.
S
Satanus, you are correct. it takes work to do that though. its easier to sit in the lounge chair of the past that to jump in and swim in the present.
I view it almost as a molting process
LMAO! This is a great description and so RIGHT ON. I'm going through a molting process this year myself. Instead of resenting the change it naturally brings in my life, I'm trying to embrace it and be excited about it.
I'm going through a molting process this year myself. Instead of resenting the change it naturally brings in my life, I'm trying to embrace it and be excited about it.
Think of the result of molting ~ a gorgeous butterfly from a caterpillar ~ a damselfy from larvae in a pond.
The process itself is constricted and not too beautiful but what emerges and takes flight will take your breathe away.
It's a leap of faith that the outcome will be better then before.
Dams
