I have been feeling alot of anger the last couple of years as I reflect on my past life as being a JW since the 1960's. I often complain to my wife, who is still active but is wearing down little by little, that I am so sick and tired of hearing every meeting how close the end is. I tell her that maybe I should not worry about a retirement plan for her and I and why should I worry as my health and strength are beginning to ebb away. Her words are always the same "well even if we were not Witnesses, we would still get old and die." The problem is: I believed for over 35 years that I would not get old and die. This was drummed into our heads by the Society at every opportunity.
As I look around the Kingdom Hall, I see so many old timers, who have believed for their entire lives that they would not get old. I am sure that when they look in the mirror, they are begining to have some doubts about not dying. What are all of these wrinkles and gray hair doing on my head? Why can't I stand up straight and walk like I used to? It is for this reason that the Society is now changing their approach about the hope that older witnesses have. It is no longer not having to die, but the wonderful hope of the resurrection. The latest Awake magazine has two big pictures of old people. One is sick in bed and the other is sitting in a rocking chair with a big look of happiness on their faces because they have the hope of the resurrection.
The churches also teach the resurrection and living again. They have the hope of living forever but you have to die to get it. What made the witnesses different and so appealing to the masses was not having to grow old and not having to die to get your reward. Yes not having to die in order to get eternal life. The majority of Witnesses just refuse to accept these facts and no matter what you say the end is so near. This is too bad and too sad.