its what they see, its what they read.

by KW13 5 Replies latest jw friends

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  KW13

  We all have a lot of experiences as ex-jw's.

  i find it so frustrating when the Witnesses are 'fore-warned' against these apostates. people that can potentially save their life when it gets to things like blood, save their family when its association and let them see the REAL truth.

  were made out to be the bad guys, one question and you suddenly become an apostate. a label thats on par with the devil to any and every witness. they don't realise that we've often been hurt 10 times more than them put together, that our scars can run deep and that we've been ready to end our life or give-up trying to exist because of the pain we were made to feel by the heartless society.

  the fact that even now i wake up and sometimes i just can't go outside for a few days, sometimes i suffer anxiety problems and i'm locked in a cage because of some clowns who decided to control everyones lives. they excuse every mistake, the rank and file jw's ready to shield the whole society and every mistake with the usual "new light now". i couldn't do that for every action that i did wrong.

  how on earth do they get away with the annointed thing, no blood by pure manipulation. sometimes i want to walk away and leave them to it, others i want to go over there and kick 'em up and down the street.

  my own mum, her emotions can be turned on and off at an instant and the frightening thing is that if it became 'clear' from Jehovah then she'd do ANYTHING for the Society. its disgusting.

  i feel i'm in a win situation sometimes, and others i feel isolated. i know of a problem that is the society, i want to deal with it and get my family out, even my stepdad yet the witnesses struggle to accept facts presented and people who aren't of the 'ex-jw' breed don't understand, or indeed give a damn about the Society. why should they, its a small minority of people but little do they realise it could one day affect them, directly or indirectly. today i was looking at an awake or watchtower, on about freeness of speech. WHAT is THAT? its not freedom of speech, its freeness to speak of Jehovah.

  hope my rambling wasn't too long.
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  hubert

  kW, I feel just like you do, most of the time.

  Some days I get encouraged to do more research, other days I get depressed about the whole thing, and just want to forget it. However, I never will forget it, because that is when the sh-t usually hits the fan, and then you wish you didn't stay on top of things.

  I have one daughter who is studying in the j.w.'s, and one daughter and granddaughter who is not in, and those are the ones I have to try to keep out of the org., while trying to work on how to get the other one (and her hubby) out of the j.w. grip, which so far, is to no avail.

  Great post, KW, and hang in there.You are certainly not alone in your feelings.

  Hubert
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  KW13

  I have one daughter who is studying in the j.w.'s, and one daughter and granddaughter who is not in, and those are the ones I have to try to keep out of the org., while trying to work on how to get the other one (and her hubby) out of the j.w. grip, which so far, is to no avail.

  ah sorry to hear. its sad because these people want something at the time and they almost need something there yet you know its gonna do harm. if you pull them away they want something just as good there, not realising that the society aren't even that good. its just the front every new person gets.

  a woman comes and has a study here every week. she lives around the corner, i sometimes wanna go around and just show her.
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  jwfacts

  Steve Hassan in Combating Cult Mind Control said that one of the universal traits of a cult is that you can not speak to ex members. If a person is studying with an 'controversial' group the first question they should ask is "Are you forbidden from speaking to ex members".
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  Synergy

  Thank you for your rant. Those are just what I (and I'm sure others) need to read sometimes so that I Don't feel Isolated. When I come on here I see people who feel just like I do and it makes me feel so much better. I hope my posts help others feel connected to God and to others when they read them. Big Hugs to you all!

  Renee (of the It's All Better Now Class)
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  KW13

  Are you forbidden from speaking to ex members?

  as a study, the answer (when you eventually got it and saw through the mist) would make you leave. you don't know that till later. GOOD POINT THAT. lol.

  I hope my posts help others feel connected to God and to others when they read them. Big Hugs to you all!

  yeh, you do offer just as much as we all do. we've all seen something or just felt something different to our friends. it helps.