I now understand the anger

hambeak

After having read Crisis of Conscience and reading many posts and posting a few topics myself asking why the anger as I didn't understand. I feel a sense of sadness for so many that have been so cruelly treated because of manmade dogma about shunning. As a youth I was taught that the society encompased the true love that Jesus taught and now I see how men in power have mutated that love into selfish power. May God have mercy on them for mistreating people who genuinly had or have a love for God and his mercy and in some cases have ripped God from their lives and hearts as well as Mothers, Fathers, Children and so forth. Thank-you to all of you here you have helped turn the lights on in my mind and heart. Now I can heal.

fullofdoubtnow

Now I can heal.

That's a good stage to reach Hambeak, I am so happy for you that you have got there.

Linda

daystar

May God have mercy on them for mistreating people who genuinly had or have a love for God and his mercy and in some cases have ripped God from their lives and hearts as well as Mothers, Fathers, Children and so forth.

I personally would hope that he would have no such mercy for that entity having so severely misguided and damaged so very many.

Understanding the anger and bitterness... yes... welcome.

Sparkplug

I saw you reading the book...and that was the absolute first time I have seen it. I need to go get a copy now. You have me curious.

BCZAR2ME

Good. Now go wash up to your elbows, it's dinner time!

bczar

xjwms

So glad you posted that.!

I look back on all my wasted time, and it gives me a pit in the gut.

This is how one gets burned out

Thank you

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PaulJ

i felt a bit angry after i read it but i just wanna get on with things now ive left. anger doesnt solve many problems.... it just eats at you. the 'truth' still has my dad and my brother so that bothers me but theres jack i can do about it at the moment...

god its good to be back...

anewme

I was like alot of others here. First I felt the shame of the dfing and shunning by friends and family.
That robbed 4 years of my life until I found this forum. Then after reading all the posts and finding a voice of my own for my own story I discovered alot of anger inside over the waste of time etc.
Then after angry postings and discussions for another year I finally decided to let it all go......all the sorrow over the wasted years, the loss of career, the ruined friendships and marriage. Instead I decided to enjoy my time left on this earth and focus on the joy of living. Even the smallest pleasures bring me great joy now. The freedom I enjoy now makes everything so much sweeter!

Life is so much better now than it ever was as a witness. The drag of their doctrine is no longer around my neck like a millstone. I now look at the world as a beautiful place filled with lovely people (ok, not all of course) But that view is a huge difference than the miserable view we had of the world as wicked and in Satans hands and all the worldly people were stupid and disgusting in their selfish sinful ways.

I never think about Armaggeddon anymore. Even the Bible I dont think about. I dont need to read it everyday. My God! At one point I knew it backwards and forwards I felt! I know what it says! I now follow my wonderful conscience which serves me better than trying to remember the Watchtower's changing views on matters. I actually have been lightening up and viewing the whole dfing and my four year angst over it as pretty funny! Jeesh! Poor Anewme! I was so serious about everything. Well, I love myself. I have a good heart.And so I forgive myself for my mistakes. Even mistakes like joining a cult and serving it for 35 years. I thought it was the right thing to do. And when leaving was the right thing to do I did that too.
So, no I am not feeling anger anymore. I feel I have healed a great deal since then.

Anewme

Lady Liberty

Dear Hambeak,

It's all part of the healing process..Hang in there!!

Sincerely,

Lady Liberty

crazyblondeb

May God have mercy on them for mistreating people who genuinly had or have a love for God and his mercy and in some cases have ripped God from their lives and hearts as well as Mothers, Fathers, Children and so forth.
I personally would hope that he would have no such mercy for that entity having so severely misguided and damaged so very many.

ditto

I now understand the anger

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