That shouldn't be so remarkable that it deserves a topic of it's own, but hey, I used to be a Jehovah's Witness, and she is still one.
It was a nice, normal conversation, the real one. The imaginary one I'd had earlier, while in the shower, involved harsh words, almost yelling, "yeah?!!, well of the two of us, who has lost their family, you, or ME???!!".
But in the real conversation, we talked about an album I'd come across that sparked a memory of her having to walk thru coals to get our parents to allow her to keep it. How they (who never listened to music) had to listen to every song to approve or disaprove (the Cat Stevens album, Tea for the Tillerman, met the impossibly high but somewhat arbitrary standards of the Toaboy 'rental units). My father generally treated my half sister like shit, and I remembered with a lump in my throat that this was one battle it seemed like she won.
We talked for 20 minutes or so. I was glad and sad and a little nervous. I found myself wanting to get off the line, because at anytime, anything could spark me to say something that would be a reminder of how far I am from being a Jehovah's Witness. Anything. I almost mentioned that I'd seen one of the songs from the album posted on :gasp: a political website! I managed to check myself.
We said goodbyes and gave our love. Just like a normal brother and sister.
Except, I haven't spoken to her in 6 months. Except, I left her a message mid-day Sunday, and by that evening, I'd convinced myself that it was on , she was shunning me. Or maybe not? No, by this morning, she had to be shunning me, by my shower this evening, she was shunning me and angry at me for messing up the family. Me! Can you imagine? Of the two of us, who the fuck has lost their family???
But she wasn't shunning me, she just doesn't check messages as often in the age of cell phones.
To anyone who didn't know better, it would seem like a normal conversation, right down to the brother who kind of wanted to get off the phone 5 minutes into the conversation.
So I talked to my sister last night
by SixofNine 6 Replies latest jw friends
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SixofNine
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Billzfan23
That sounds really encouraging. Maybe she will realize that the borg is controlling her life and she will continue to correspond with you and have some sense of normalcy.
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kerj2leev
Baby steps Six, maybe this is a start of something!!
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RAF
Cool ...
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Xena
I have conversations like that with one of my sisters from time to time. I always feel like I'm walking a tightrope though and any minute something will be said that will recall to her mind that she ought to be shunning me.
I enjoy the fact that we can chat like regular sisters do but it also makes me a bit melancholy for that time in my life when this was a day to day occurance not a rare treat.
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Good Girl or Bad Girl?
I'm happy for you, Six. It sounds like it could take its toll on you though, not ever being able to be yourself to her. It's so sad. I like how Kerj put it, Baby Steps.
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becca1
Isn't normal great??!!