Here is my take in 1975......I date a guy in the org....one time...I talk about my last boyfriend...wordly guy....did some wrong stuff, ....Mr. In the Org Date says to me..."Do the same stuff to me or I'm turning you in to your elders including your elder father.
I'm sixteen, he is 23 ......I think to my self.....I either do this or my life is hell in every direction...I think some more...I really don't want to do this but have no choice other than to keep him quiet.....so I do what he demands....
How can you scream, or cry, .........or even talk about this????
He keeps calling me and taking me out...I don't want to, but I seem to have no choice other than keeping this pig quiet. He talks about doing it with animals......I can no longer tolerate this Pig's perversions. I tell him I'm done..its over.
His first response is to run to his elders telling them I was the big tease, the big whore. ......
Those elders call my elders......he was 23 on public reproof, I was 16 .
I was scared, and didn't know what to do......He won the first round with the first 5 hard core elders lableing me filth at age 16.
This is a long horrible story in my history with Jws. My point being....when was I suppose to scream? I finally got the nerve to "scream" and got nailed.....
r.