Hi all, I haven't been around a lot, mostly due to study commitments. The course is going well although I got very stressed out last year at the workload and have decided to take more breaks and take longer to finish it. I'm looking at seven years at the mo! I'm enjoying it though.
I've got another family visit coming up in a few months and thought it might help to have on hand some facts re the Signs of the Times propaganda. Mum has asked that I keep my eye on the news and get my ass into gear if I notice that the Signs are making it clear that the end is coming, *sigh*. It is my opinion that the world is in exactly the same state as it ever was, and that humankind has exactly the same proportion of good:evil as it ever has. Eg: more people die in earthquakes, famine and war now just because there are more people. I'd like some statistics to back it up. Does anybody know of a website or some research that approaches the signs of the times from a comparative point of view? I'm sure there's somebody out there who has looked into it.
It's not like I can give the site to mum, but it would be handy to have a few numbers or facts in my head to throw into the conversation if it comes up. I'm kind of hoping it doesn't though, actually I'm hoping that they agree to not talk about any of it, and not talk about the disaster zone our family has become. Ideally I'll be able to get them to just go out somewhere and try to enjoy each others company in public where the conversation can't be steered towards how I've destroyed the family and them, etc. If it can't, this time I'm going to control how much I let them put us through, and if it gets ugly again I'll just end the conversation.
The most important thing to my parents is how they and the JWs look to outsiders. They'd be relieved if I lost it and cut them off. It used to matter to me that I wouldn't look like the bad guy, but I'm caring a lot less these days, and knowing what lies they've spun already it won't be much worse to be the one to do the cutting off. I'm just hanging on now because it's the only thing I can do to highlight to them how horrid disfellowshipping is. If I'm the one to walk away, they can pretend that it was all me. In this case it really only costs us a few ugly days a year, and I'll be more cautious this time about how far I let them push us.