Here I go! Forgive me if this rambels a little. I need to vent.
First of all, let me say that I have been a jw for 10 or so years. When I started "studying" I was younger had many friends and a loving family. I was a little naive but still curious about the world around me. Any way, as soon as I became serious I started to loose my friends and family. No big surprise there! However, I was told that whatever I lost from the world I would gain 2x in Jah's org. Being a single sister this was important for me because I lost my friends and family after I was baptized. I noticed in my KH there were 3 different groups of people the very young, the very old, or the married couples. This was really hard for me! I have never been so lonely or depressed in my entire life. So, I left for awhile. I got pregnant. Because of the guilt I felt about my child dying because of me I tried to go back. I did the whole public reproof thing. I was a single parent trying to do the best that I could. I got a 2nd shift job so I didn't have to put her in daycare and her father would watch her at night. I was told that this was just an excuse to not go to the meetings. Some of the "friends" would spy on me, waiting on the street to see when I was coming or going and with whom. They would even call my house when they knew I wasn't there, just to try and get
info from my childs father. Like how our relationship is going?
These Brothers and Sisters barely even knew I existed when I was active and now they want to know how I'm doing? Why?
Thanks,
Beepers