Zev
When the WT locked it's doors on 9-11 I was disgusted. They changed their little tape on their site many times and that brought out how they lie and change things to suit themselves. How could they sit and do nothing to help? Then I found out about the blood issue and felt sick to my stomach. All the operations I have had, all the times I have been in the hospital, and I always wrote (In Big Red Letters) NO BLOOD. Then they told my son that he would not be able to study the bible on his own, that he needed the organization for that. In other words, he is stupid?
I watched the people at the meetings and how depressed they seemed. I sat at all the meetings listening to the same boring redundant junk that I used to listen to years ago before I DAed. Glassy eyed people, sad and trying to keep awake. A young girl taking her 9 month old to the back and hearing her cry so hard because her mother was punishing her for not sitting still.
Then I read Crisis of Conscience and that was the final nail in the watchtower coffin. When I finally realized that it was all a sham, I felt a great sense of relief but also a deep sadness. I am so happy that we are out, my son and myself.
You may have to go a little at a time. It was easier for me because I had been away from the Kingdom Hall for many years and was only back for 4 months. Good luck, don't give up, and list all the things that don't add up. And all the changes, and all the missed dates of the end, and the UN thing. I asked my son to write it all down for himself so he could look at it for what it is.
Imagine, after 28 years of believing that I must die rather then take blood, I am free to accept blood if I need it.