Hello,
Iv been busy, just an update really. Still not been to a meeting, my friends are distancing themselves now, Im being more open about my feelings towards the body of elders and inproper methods they use to deal with things. Its hard, yet its very liberating. Thank you all for your replies and PM's they really helped. I must apologide, I was quite the horn dog when i first joined, im quite embarrassed now, I really was in a "passionate" state of being LOL. must have been the full moon. As regards my education in Med, i have taken my first set of exams and assignments and recievd an 'A - Distinction' in them all. Im super happy, it all feels so surreal. 12 months ago I was a JW yes man, now im a Med Student JW no man, soooooo surreal i feel like im in a dream. Any way next step... med school interviews.
You know whats hitting me the most? I pioneered etc, cos of my stands in the truth i was thrown out of the family home, shunned by a few, lived a tough, poverty struckem life wondering why Jah wasnt looking after me. Now I have taken my life into my own hands, it feels so empowering. If i get 89% in Chemistry its because thats what i deserve. I feel dumb for expecting prayer to find me a nice warm bed that wasnt the back seat of my sports car (no iv already ascerted im a virgin, a super goody boy one too). Sounds stupid I know, but when you "seek first the kingdom..." and end up homeless it aint no picnic. Your reward will be in heaven! My reward will come from helping myself !