Hi friends,
Some of you may know of the year that I've had and my exit from the religion along with all the trauma that this brings.
I've been seeing my counselor for about 5 months now, and yesterday, during my session, her eyes filled up with tears, and she said, she feels I've made the breakthrough.
I was reading a thread a week or so ago, in this site and a book called Toxic parents was recomended. Well I bought that book, and started to read.
My initial reason for reading was to help bury the ghosts of my past, however I was struck by the implications that I could also be 'toxic' to my own children. For that reason I am now reading this book in two minds. Confirming the toxic relationships that I had with my parents, but also that I HAVE to break this toxic cycle and NOT pass these things onto my own, very precious children.
I'm at peace. The past is the past. Yes its painfull, but the future is what I have.
Shell XXXXXXXX to all you guys who provide support to those of us who tend to not say too much. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX