I am afraid......

OnTheWayOut

......to say anything. I guess I won't. I can't imagine
it would be allowed anyway. Don't even ask what I refer to.

You are going to see a completely different OTWO
from now on, because he is afraid. It will not be a new and
improved OTWO, but it will be what it is. I loved this place.
I found a home. Well, now I am sour. It won't ever feel as
good as it did before.

I come here for fellow feeling and compassion and the ability to
freely speak my thoughts- something I could not do at the Kingdom
Hall. Well- no more of that.

I have great friends here who care for me. Otherwise I would be
out of here. Thank you, great friends.

Please don't ask why I am afraid. I won't say. It is all very
insignificant in the big picture. This will be my last post on this
thread. Don't PM me any questions about it, either. Let's just
say, "OTWO was afraid." Feel free to post your support, but
don't ask questions. I won't say. And don't think it's
all bad. If I wasn't afraid, I would be angry. You wouldn't
like me when I am angry.

Since I have restricted myself from further posting on this thread,
before I go on to the next thread, I just want to say what I feel
is the reasons many people come here-
They were silenced in the congregation, they were shunned by
family and friends, those in power abused them. They came here
because they figured nobody would silence them, they would
develop new family and friends, those in power would not abuse them.
They were sure of that.

So, that's it. I would leave, but honestly, I am hooked.
I want to leave, but the addiction will keep me from doing it.
I will just become the redheaded stepchild. I faded from the congregation.
Maybe I will fade from this too. Even if I don't, I will always comment
differently from now on. Maybe I will return to writing that book.
Nobody can take that away from me.

One last thing (won't OTWO ever just shut up and start being afraid
to say anything?) I never want to lose contact with some of my
best friends here. I will have to start making a real effort to gather
phone numbers or email addresses. Just in case I am unable to
contact you through JWD- for whatever reasons.
Okay, starting NOW... I am afraid to say......

Vivamus

They came here
because they figured nobody would silence them, they would
develop new family and friends, those in power would not abuse them.
They were sure of that.

This place is like a haven when you leave the dubs. But it is a forum, cyberspace ... and however much worth it has .. you must create your own real-life-time haven.

And freedom of speech is something you excersice. Even if the law, or people say you have it ... you need to excersice that right. And invariable you will find that even in a free country it will not always be okay what you have to say . Freedom is a state of mind.

nvrgnbk

People that abuse their power are often very much controlled by fear themselves.

In fact, most unhealthy behavior stems from fear.

Love, on the other hand, pushes the fear away.

Good to see you friend.

You know what a big help you've been to me, I've told you that many times.

Take good care, and lose the fear.

Not a command, a friendly suggestion.

Nate

summer

Your words convey such an uneasy feeling.

Living in fear is no way to live:-(

Please, take good care of yourself.

(((OTWO)))

*summer*

flipper

OTWO- I am your friend and here in a time of support . I will pm you my home e-mail if you'd like to open up. Peace , friend, Mr. Flipper

Vinny

From somebody that has no idea what you are talking about here, your post sounds bizarre. Sorry.

If you are not going to get into any specifics, then why post at all?

I have enjoyed reading many of your posts on this site since you have some valuable experience as a many year elder, and will be sorry to see you fade out.

Tara

(((((OTWO))))), Sorry. I like reading your posts.

Open mind

Well OTWO, I don't know the details of why you're afraid or why you've been gone a while, but

1. I'm glad you're back.

2. ((( OTWO )))

Open Mind

Mum

Everyone is afraid of something. I don't know what has prompted your fear, but I hope it can be overcome in time. After all, Thucydides (I think that's the right guy) said that happiness comes from freedom, and freedom comes from courage. Regards, SandraC, becoming more and more courageous

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