I USED TO PRAY I'D NEVER LOOSE THE TRUTH

by ballistic 8 Replies latest jw friends

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  ballistic

  I simply want to say what a great feeling it is to be free of the strangle-hold of mind control, guilt and the suppression of being in the truth.
  I remember a CO in a public talk saying how the New System would bring relief from the pressures of this system as if a huge weight had been removed from your shoulders.
  And then those talks about being a "slave to sin" which carefully twists the "apparent" freedom of worldly persons into slavery.
  I used to pray at night, that unlike my siblings in our large family, I wouldn't loose the truth. I think something inside of me was scared I would. I don't know why.
  OK, so it took me through pioneering and a hopeless marriage but eventually I did loose it, and never wrote to thank them, and even though I'm not sure if I still believe in God or not, I should at least thank Him, as I had prayed, a few days prior to my disfellowshipping, for him to guide me out of my troubles, whatever they may be.
  I just want you all to know that although I post about anger at the WTBTS, I trully am a very happy person, and I am happy to be here and to feel like that huge weight has already been lifted.

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  Jang

  I used to pray at night, that unlike my siblings in our large family, I wouldn't loose the truth. I think something inside of me was scared I would. I don't know why.

  Ballistic, you haven't lost the truth, you have just lost the control of the organization. You have thrown off their heavy yoke. That is why you feel free.

  Jesus did say "You shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free." He also said "I am the Truth" ..... and "My yoke is light"

  There is a VAST difference between true Christian beliefs and those of religion - oppressive organizations like the WTS.

  JanG
  CAIC Website: http://caic.org.au/zjws.htm
  Personal Webpage: http://uq.net.au/~zzjgroen/
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  Amazing

  Hi Ballistic: Good post. I second your views as that closely match my own. I still bewlieve in God and have faith in Jesus Christ, but without any affiliation to any religion, religious system, or theology developed by others. - Amazing
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  outnfree

  Ballistic,

  I prayed to the God of the Bible that He would lead me to know if the Witnesses were really the true religion. I prayed fervently, daily, and with great faith that He could make me see if I were worshipping Him acceptably or not.

  Look where I wound up!

  I still believe in a Creator God and have faith that walking in Christ's footsteps is a commendable way to go through life, but otherwise I'm deeply confused.

  BUT,

  I am no longer duped!

  outnfree

  Par dessus toutes choses, soyez bons. La bonte est ce qui ressemble le plus a Dieu et ce qui desarme le plus les hommes -- Lacordaire
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  Nathan Natas

  Hi Ballistic,

  I agree with JanG - you have lost "the trooth," but are now closer to THE TRUTH.

  TRUTH is always congruent with observable reality. The TRUTH is sometimes stunning in its simplicity.

  There's nothing wrong with anger. There are times when it is an appropriate and rational response. When you're angry, I'll still be your friend. Hell, you've paid for your anger, as we all have.

  "I don't believe in the trooth fairy anymore!"
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  Yerusalyim

  "You shall know the truth, and the truth will make you free." Welcome to the Truth about the Truff.

  YERUSALYIM
  "Vanity! It's my favorite sin!"
  [Al Pacino as Satan, in "DEVIL'S ADVOCATE"]
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  DIM

  you reminded me of a question that was asked at bookstudy on Tuesday night - "what should we do when we feel unworthy of god's love?"

  nothing like programming your servants to feel certains ways. watch out for the thought police!
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  ISP

  feel like that huge weight has already been lifted.

  With you there ballistic!

  ISP
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  Prisca

  Brian,

  I know how you feel. I never thought I'd ever leave the JWs, and used to pray to God to show me the correct way to serve him. Funnily enough, my prayers and study of the Bible took me away from the WTS. Instead, I feel closer to God now than I ever did.

  The weight off the shoulders is a huge relief. I can know understand what Jesus said when he said his yoke was light and that he would refresh us. The yoke of the WTS was certainly far removed from what Jesus had in mind!