Been lurking the whole time.Without going into a long story,mylife has changed so much.
Im the father of 4 raised in the Troof.from 3 on.Always had problems dealing with the pledge,sports and girls.Got reccomended Bad assoc a few times when young.Redeemed myself at 16.Time to dunk.Well after I did,I went crazy worldly.I was a senior in school shortly after.I went through running away at 17.Being a wild child but always having guilt.Passed up on sex with I dont know how many women because I still held some things true.(They were some pretty hot girls too)To the point of getting into pot and acid in the early 80s.(I didnt seem to mind that) Through the years Id always believed it was the truth.There were times I would throw my pot out the window of my car and cry,because I could never live up to a jw life.Married my wife.Never had a christmas tree(even though she gave presents)PS so did I.In and out of the org.Never felt like I mattered.Anyway I owe my life to my wife who did research and brought me here.
My old screen name was life.I quit trying to read and post all the time because I was so messed up after finding out the truth about what I was really involved in and what the facts were.(I freaked out in disbelief)Then I thought I could help others.I posted for a while.Always stupid.hey congradulations to newbies.(Not that that wasnt meant to congradulate)I just never felt free.At that time,we had no money.Sound familiar for a dub?Since then My eyes have been opened wide to the repressing cult power.controlling mentality.(Much like the govt)However since then Im proud to say that between my wife and Is efforts we now provide a Very lucrative living for our selves and children,
I miss sharing.Although I feel better now.It finally made me the man I am today(Turning my back) (Dont look back) Ken