It's weird because I haven't had anything to do with the JWs for years now, but I still dream about going to the KH very occasionally. The last time I dreamed about going there, there was apparently going to be a special meeting where some hugely important news was going to be announced, and my mom begged me to come with her, until I finally caved. This is weird in itself, because she hasn't had anything to do with the JWs for years either, although I think it's possible she could relapse.
Anyway, we're at the meeting, and this biker guy comes into the auditorium and starts heckling the speaker. Some brothers take him outside, and I'm compelled to go with them to watch the spectacle. I remember being outside for a while, because it was refreshing not bring in the meeting for a while, but eventually I went back inside and it was utter chaos. People were strangling themselves with shoelaces and belts. There were a couple sisters hanging themsleves with electrical cords in the coat closet. Mothers were helping children strangle themselves. It was seriously the most screwed up thing I had ever seen. Walking around in shocked disbelief, I gathered that while I was outside, the elder had read a letter from the GB saying that the End was very near, possibly tomorrow, and that the New Light had shown them that only way to ensure their survival of the Tribulation was to show faith and end their lives now.
So I make my way through the horrid scene, trying to find mom. Two elders had her down behind the literature counter. They had sedated her and were helping her survive the Tribulation too. So I did what I had to do and kicked their faces in, then I threw mom over my shoulder and ran to the car. As I roared out of the driveway they were actually shooting at the car, trying to save us.
At that point I woke up. You know the kind of nitemares where you wake up, and it's like you've just come up out of the water, because you've been too scared to even breath for a while? Well, this was like that. The scariest dreams are the ones that could actually come true, and I think this one really could. Not that my position ever needed any steadying, but after that there's no way I could ever have anything to do with those people again. It was the kind of experience that changes you forever.
I hadn't told anybody about it, because I don't know anyone who would "get it". Has anyone else had a dream like this?