i'm curious if while you were or still are involved in the organization - did you ever express doubts, especially to grown children? or, if you had doubts did you still encourage your family to participate? in your experience, what would be the best way to start a conversation about what you truly believe?
i've always been interested in this question because many years ago, an elder visited us and made it clear that he had personal doubts, but then made a statement that "sometimes, you just do things for your familys sake." obviously, his comments had a huge impact on me - and i'm quite sure his wife had no idea he had any doubts at all.
i've never understood why having an honest conversation about things is such a taboo. i would want my children to form their own beliefs on things, and even if i didn't agree, at least it would be an open relationship.