Hang in there! I know it is so hard...
I have posted this note a long time ago, back in 99 I think, my mom contacted me after 7 years of not seeing each other, she wanted to see me so bad, little did I know that my dad had a huge problem with this (note, they were JWs) when he found out. The day before I was to go see her, she bought me tickets, she left me a message at work saying that she wanted to cancel the trip because she felt too guilty having me come out to see her. She was crying on the phone and told me to take care and that she loves me. I was devastated.
A year later, my mom divorced my dad, and left the org, DFd. We reunited in 2000. You never know, stand tall.
Nikki