I just have to whine....

by isnrblog 4 Replies latest jw friends

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  isnrblog

  I am sitting here wondering where my life went.

  I was raised a JW, married at 19, had 2 kids.

  By the time my wife was 40 she had given up on sex. At any rate she didn't feel the need to look good for me, so she porked out.She felt I was hooked by the family, shunning thing, so why bother. I burried myself in business, neglected my family.

  I finally left at 50. I ,married a beautiful, kind woman. Not a Witness. I would not piss on a Witness if he/she were on fire.

  So I sit here, wondering why my life was wasted with a woman I didn't love. Why couldn't I have been with my present wife? Why couldn't my ex have found happiness? I didn't and do not hate her. I just don't want to me married to her.

  My ex-wife found out that the brotherhood, the "spiritual paradise" is not for overweight, middle 50's sisters. I guess it's just for the beautiful people. It's no more fair to her than it is to me. She thought that the brotherhood would support here. What do the publications say, safety in the flock, the loving congregation of Jehovah?

  I don't feel guilt for leaving her. I don't think we ever really cared for each other. Sure, I'm pissed because of my wasted time.

  But she is really no where, adrift on a pityless sea. They don't care about her, they don't care for her. I don't see her much, but when I do it's easy to tell that she is left for dead. She has no real friends.

  To Witnesses and Non Witnesses alike, these are the real tragic incidents. At least I got out. She still thinks they give a shit.

  Jehovah's Witnesses: Killing you slowly, one at a time.

  Fred www.isnrblog.com
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  nomoreguilt

  Perhaps one day we shall talk. My life so paralels yours, with a couple of exceptions. And , from what I have seen of other's,we are not alone. Iwill make a note of your name and pm you soon. It sounds as though you need a listening ear rather than a sounding board. hang in there. Your ex's problems are no longer yours.......However, there are your offspring to comsider aren't there...

  NMG
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  Hope4Others

  By the time my wife was 40 she had given up on sex. At any rate she didn't feel the need to look good for me, so she porked out.She felt I was hooked by the family, shunning thing, so why bother. I burried myself in business, neglected my family

  Perhaps she was going through her own unhappiness issues.

  I don't feel guilt for leaving her. I don't think we ever really cared for each other

  So many stay for the sake of kids, I even as a witness back in the day, felt "Why stay in a loveless marriage" life is too short. Some I knew

  were bitterly unhappy, they should have walked regardless of the consequences. Kid's are not blind to what is going on.

  hope4others
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  isnrblog

  I don't really like to whine, but you're right. There are so many similar stories.

  I wonder if the heartless pricks in Bethel really know how much harm they do.

  The funny thing is, we all could have walked when ever we wanted, We just didn't know.
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  isnrblog

  Hope, you are correct and good for you to recognize it. I am glad you walked early.

  I could have walked too, when ever I wanted. I was like a deer in the headlights.

  Am I bitter? I guess that's hard to hide.

  I feel most sorry for my ex. She just stays and takes it. They don't give a shit about her, single moms and others. There is no talking to her.

  "Oh, Jehovah cares fro me" she said once. It looks like he's doing a good job.