Since I was a raised a JW, it was pretty much forbidden for me to research the history of JWs, outside of looking up the Society's publication.
However, if I had not been raised a witness and was introduced to the religion, it would have been okay for me to do some research. There would have been no repurcusions.
What is the wicked and evil truth they were trying to hide from me? How could I look at it otherwise than to ASSUME that there is a wicked and evil truth they are hiding?
Maybe if it wasn't the forbidden fruit I wouldn't be tempted to eat it.