It takes courage to enjoy it.

by slimboyfat 7 Replies latest jw friends

  • slimboyfat
    slimboyfat

    As someone wise once said, it can sometimes take more courage to give in to our desires than to resist. I feel this is especially true for those who have been Jehovah's Witnesses, but who have managed to break free from the mental tyranny of so many needless Watchtower prohibitions. How many of us had a warped or in some sense stunted adolescence because of the mixed up views of sex the Watchtower instilled in us? And how many of us felt guitly or sinful just for reading books that are considered out of bounds. I can still remember the agitation/thrill of reading books like The Blind Watchmaker, Crisis of Conscience and Apocalypse Delayed when I was beginning my mental journey out of the Witness mindset: always looking over my shoulder, and worried if I had offended Jehovah irredeemably.

    I can't help thinking about one brother I know in his 50s who is homosexual and has been resisting his desires all his life. In one sense I can't help but admire his tremendous determination and resolve. In another sense I also feel it would require real courage for him to break free and explore his sexuality freely. Is it strength or weakness that holds him back?

    The Watchtower organization would label those who no longer accept their prohibitions as deviants with no self-control, and even "mentally diseased". Rather I say that people who manage that ordeal of transition from the grip of the Watchtower's mental tyranny should be praised for their outstanding courage. There need be no shame in exploring ourselves - on the contrary it takes real courage to enjoy it.

    So I propose this anthem for courageous people everywhere who have broken with Watchtower puritanism and thought control and dared to enjoy:

    http://youtube.com/watch?v=LKzPB_ekP1o

  • WTWizard
    WTWizard

    I believe this is also true of general societal prohibitions. When we are too repressed for whatever reason, it is that much extra work to make up for it.

    And we all know that the witlesses are unduly repressed in every area of their lives. Whatever they want to do is forbidden. Sex, materialism, college, a decent job, the Internet, listening to music or books that do not come from the Filthful and Disgraceful Slavebugger--all bashed to death for a person's whole life. Of course, it is that much harder to bust free. It is much easier to simply go on the way of stagnation that one was brought up in, even after they have stopped going to the boasting sessions and out in field circus.

    That goes with such innocent pleasures as Christmas decorations and music. Many will continue to resist listening to Christmas music or decorating for Christmas long after they stop going to boasting sessions or out in field circus. And it is because they are afraid of doing something wrong. These people need to "sear" their conscience (as the washtowels warn against) and retrain it so they will have a more objective viewpoint. Only then can they really break free from washtowel teachings.

  • nvrgnbk
    nvrgnbk
    on the contrary it takes real courage to enjoy it

    You sound like my therapist.

    One of your best posts ever, slim.

  • changeling
    changeling

    But all in moderation, and in the right place at the right time, don't you think? Or is that too JW?

    I'm all for embracing and enjoying life, but I've seen many on this board go "overboard" and end up in a shit hole that they can't seem to get out of.

    changeling :)

  • slimboyfat
    slimboyfat

    Thanks for your comments. I am not endorsing hedonistic excess that might harm others and ourselves. I am just talking about living a regular life - you know the kind of harmless stuff the Watchtower magazines would have you feel shameful about.

    I wonder why the youtube video did not embed. I was so excited by Simon's announcement I included it especially, but it never worked.

  • dwtnphotog
    dwtnphotog

    Well, coming from a similar experience to what was mentioned in the original post, thanks!

    I spent my entire life trying to repress desires that the WT told me were wrong. I did my best to live by their rules but...I couldn't. I prayed, pioneered, went to Bethel, was an elder and did everything I was "supposed" to do! Hell, I even got married, even without ANY desire to be with a woman! I tried SO hard but I broke. I tried, unsuccessfully thank goodness, to kill myself. The burden was much more than I could handle! I was put in the hospital, under observation, and not one JW came to visit me...

    I decided after all I had done, I had to make "me" happy! I couldn't live trying to be what everyone else wanted me to be! I has to be who I was. And it did take some courage! It scared the hell out of me! But I can finally be happy with myself!

    I can finally "be" myself!

  • Eyes Open
    Eyes Open

    Thanks! Here's to being human.

  • AWAKE&WATCHING
    AWAKE&WATCHING

    Excellent post, love Bjork, very wacky and I'm all about wacky.


    I was converted in 1979 at the age of 21. I don't have the hang ups that I see a lot of people have, especially those born in. My wish for all of us is to have the freedom to live free and enjoy life. We are the only ones who have the power to let go and make that happen for ourselves. I suggest therapy for anyone having trouble with letting go.


    Those f**king evil bastards only have control of our minds (and our bodies as well) if we allow it. Don't let them win. Take your life back.

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