As a Witness, among the rank and file your a regular troop but out in the field, your a specialist with knowledge the World doesnt have, your special and all wise. Its a huge fall from grace when you become an apostate, some of us are still in denial!
How long did it take you to see your not all wise? The first realisation i'd been a total prat was when i first left, all the times people urged me to leave, the apostate fruitcakes outside the convention, they were acting out of love and i'd rejecting the actual truth, and openly ridiculed them. It is my goal to join the apostates outside the convention one year!