At about the time I learned the truth about the "truth" and disassociated, I started to compose a trio for piano, violin and cello. It served as both a distraction and an outlet for my emotions at the time. I finished two movements and was working on a third that eventually evolved into an entirely separate piece. I set it aside with hopes of finishing it someday.
Now looking back, I find that it so strongly reminds me of what I went through, that I don't wish continue working on it. I had planned a light and cheerful middle movement to more closely resemble the style of other piano trios. Now that seems inappropriate considering the
emotional context of when I composed it. I'll probably just leave it as is, unless I decide to make some minor revisions.
I thought I would share it here. Perhaps it will be meaningful to some who have gone through similar experiences. The recording was produced by computer with instrument samples and suffers from the limitations of that kind of rendering. Thanks for listening.
First Movement
http://www.microtonalmusic.net/audio/pianotriofirstmovement.mp3
Second Movement
http://www.microtonalmusic.net/audio/pianotriosecondmovement.mp3