"We all sat at meetings feeling something was wrong"
Well, Daaaaammmn; didn't just 'feel' it; saw it! Saw Exodus 19: 16-19 in bible referring to volcanic eruption but that was viewed as 'presence of Middle Eastern god' by ignorant, superstitious, backwards, illiterate Middle Eastern nomads with no CLUE as to what 'reality' really was... And that act of drawing them all to the foot of the mountain - Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! [Why can't we ever have an idiot-destroying pyroclastic flow when we need one??]
Saw Numbers 21: 6-10 regarding the forging of an IMAGE OF A SERPENT IN BRONZE as accepted behavior, and realized this drastic contradiction was evidence of truly PAGAN origins of bible - something someone either forgot to purge, or had to leave in to connect with 'messiah' prophecies later on...
Saw 13-year-old 3rd - maybe 4th - generation-Jehovah's-Witness blond girl grab her 13-year-old black girl friend around the throat and choke her while slamming her head into the - Jehovah's Witness Kingdom Hall's - support pillar - with about twenty adult JWs in the room with them, totally ignoring what was going on!!
That brought the flaws in the organization to my attention!! T'wasn't just a feeling - T'was HARD, SOLID FACT!!
My emotions? Absolute flabbergasted astonishment and revulsion at the extent of HYPOCRISY I saw - never mind read - in the WTBTS' literature and the actions of their people!! Whew! GLAD I'M OUT! Zid