Just who or what am I mad at ?

by The Berean 5 Replies latest watchtower child-abuse

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  The Berean

  To be sure, I have waisted decades of productivity due to a great extent to the control of a religious phantom force. But who am I actually upset at?

  A) Am I upset at some Supreme Being with a textbook case of Sadistic Personality Disorder who has constructed this spinning Funhouse for his/her own entertainment?

  B) Am I upset at other oppportunistic humans who used alleged spirituality to humiliate and enslave me while elevating themselves to a self-appointed position of superiority?

  C) Am I really upset at myself for allowing this control to linger long after evidence proved that I was not of that sort?

  D) Or should I not be mad at all, accepting such history as little more than a common part of the human experience, compelling me to put any resentment behind?

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  bluecanary

  You may be mad at all of the above. And anger is an emotion you own so no one has the right to tell you what you should do with it or whether or not you should hold on to it. I think the better question here is: what do you want?

  Bearing in mind that you cannot alter the past, moving on from this point, what do you want your life to be like? Do you want to harness your anger and try to change what the JWs are doing? Do you want to forget about them completely and pretend they never existed? Something in between? What option would be most satisfying to you in the context of the rest of your life?
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  BabaYaga

  Greetings, Berean!

  Anger is part of the healing process. While you are experiencing it, be angry at A, B, and C! But don't let it consume you.

  As you heal, option D will just sort-of happen.

  Love,
  Baba.
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  SPAZnik

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  Mickey mouse

  It's a mixture of A-C and D is healthy as part of the healing progress. Just don't stay in the anger stage forever.
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  rebel8

  All of the above.

  Would identifying the main culprit help you?