Is it the same for everyone who is an ex witness? Do we all go to bed every night of our lives detached for the human experience at a level the vast majority take for granted and enjoy everyday? I sometimes think my inability to love was switched off at such a young age I am incapable of letting anyone else in. Half loved in a life half lived....
Dubby Custard
by LIftsong 5 Replies latest jw friends
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jamiebowers
Wow, that's really sad! No, I don't feel that way at all, but I wasn't born in. I don't think an emotional disconnect is necessarily a born in's fate. Counseling and time could change the disconnect.
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bluecanary
How long were you in and how long have you been out, Liftsong? It's possible to find other things to fill the void. Some choose another religion. Some go back to school. Some focus on forging new relationships. Some pursue volunteer work. I've been dabbling in all four.
Give it a little time and explore your options. Find a way to express your creativity. You may be detached from the human experience right now, but you can become reattached.
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kitten whiskers
To a point, I can relate. I feel the ability to love, but not the skill to reach out and make connections. I am trying. I feel warped and paralyzed that way. I feel like I need a re-boot so to speak of my friendship making skills. They were suppressed as a child with "everyone being evil" and all.
With family shunning, especially my mother, I do go to bed every night with sadness. That makes me feel detached. When the one person in the world that should be there, turns on you...it really leaves a cold empty hollow in your soul. Almost swallowing you at times.
I am sorry you feel this way. Give yourself time, and keep mind over matter! Keep reasoning with yourself what is the right course you should take. Have courage and hope. And take your time.
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cameo-d
Liftsong...Do you have a pet?