I would say yes, in a sense, I was a loner - but made to be, not because I wanted to. I never fit 'in' with the cliques in the KH. I know cliques are found everywhere, but I was never fully accepted into any group within congregations. Yet worldly wise, I was always able to find friends, though never allowed to associate with them outside of school/work. I was not the rebellious type, so I didnt have an independant spirit. I just didnt get along that great with girls...lol. And I wasnt allowed to hang out with boys, so that was the dilemma. But it wasnt for lack of trying.
I tried SO hard to fit in with this and that group. I did pioneer hours at one stage, in an effort to fit in with that clique, but they never took me on board. I was alright as a partner when they needed to get their hours, but not ok to hang out with after service. That led to a VERY lonely existence within 'the truth'. I had noone but my siblings, and thats no way for a child/adolescent to grow up. While I loved my siblings, teens also need that outside influence from their home life. I didnt have it, though I wanted it badly.
I had no social life whatsoever. Id hear about congregation outings after the fact, things like that. Yet, noone had any reason not to invite me. I was doing everything right spiritually. I was a friendly person, noone disliked me....they just didnt like me enough to want to associate with me. Maybe they saw me as a threat, I dont know.
To this day, I dont have any social life...lol. I have children to care for, and I have to work practically full time to support them. I dont have babysitters even if I did want to go out because I only have my family, and if they watch my kids during the day while I work, I dont want to burden them with babysitting them on weekends etc.
