i think myself and others here maybe suffering from ex jw paranoida. On this site we can somtimes imagine that the borg are out there looking for US! i've started to realise that this is not the case. There are no bethal watchers out there looking for only highdose... they are just keeping an eye on those evil apostates.
I'd like to invite everyone to live their life with freedom and stop looking over their shoulder all the time. To quote Helen Fielding " nobody is looking at you, everyone is thinking about themselves... just like you"