The time is circa 1995, I have just been dfed for challenging the Tower’s right to dictate to me what I can or cannot do professionally. The web is in its infancy (I’m talking archaic days as in windows 3.1), I go on AOL and put up a thread on X-JWs on their bulletin board. I am thrilled to have Alvinas a current JW respond with kindness and understanding as she mirrors the same issues I wrote about. My happiness is short lived due to AOL staff erasing my post. I repost with another topic, I again have some current JWs reply now attacking my opinion and wouldn’t you know it AOL staff delete my post again. In time I find a bulleting board that meets the criteria of what is allowed by AOL. I feel like I have hit pay dirt finding RalphRUOK debating self righteous JWS like Veeger and Praotes. Gawd as I sit here and write these words it seems so long ago and yet like yesterday.
As time passes and I learn to use a computer and surf the web I come upon gems like The Watchtower Observer, Freeminds, Doc Bob’s site and others. This leads me to the newsgroup Philia and Jesus Witnesses, ah ……..those were the days. Here is a melting pot of current and former JWs, there is the good the bad and the ugly and I revel being all 3 along with others. The metaphor that comes to mind is a scene from the movie Fight Club, the brawls were more spiritual to me than all the 20 yrs of meetings I attended. Here we spoke our minds and emotions letting it rip, nothing held back. At times we were joined by people like Bengal in such deep pain that they wanted to end their lives. We all took a break from our flame wars to write words of encouragement to not give up.
Whatever became of these fellow brothers in arms? Some came and went as some on this board are abandoning ship each reaching different plateaus in their healing and evolution some never to be heard from again. As I reflect on my own journey, I am deeply grateful for the time we shared and how we sharpened each other like iron. Christine Callaghan if you read this post thank you for your contribution to my growth and evolution, seeing you online the other day brought warmth to my heart and a feeling of Nostalgia.
“Some people look at the ways things are and they ask why, others look at the ways things could be and they ask why not? R Kennedy
Victor Escalante