thankyou all who have shown support to me and goodbye for now x

looloo 15 years ago

i first came on this site around the time we were waiting the my daughters abuser to face justice in crown court , we got no justice (due to lack of evidence) but his other victims had a very small section of the abuse they suffered legally recognised , due to a deal being done with the defence , so we waited 20 months to give evidence just to be dropped at the last minute for a "deal" my by now ex best friend decided to stand by the child rapist !as did some of his family despite him being a disfellowshipped person (he was not disfellowshipped for child abuse ) and they are all jws ! isold my house and left the town i once loved as i couldnt bare to be in the same town as him when he left prison (he did 18 months of a 3 year sentence ) and see his supportive family knocking on doors taliking of truth made me feel like screaming at them "what about my poor girl , wheres your support for her , you hypocrites "my daughter is still very much affected by what happened to her age 13 , sexual, physical and mental abuse over months and months . she is now 22 . but i also have a 6 year old girl who was only 20 months old when i found out and rEported the abuse to the police , and the long process started , for the next 20 moths i could think of nothing but giving evidence in court and trying to support my girl who was also terrified of that , my little one was 3 and a half when he was sentenced and i looked back and realised i had hardley taken any notice of her since i found out about my other girls abuse , i had missed out on so much of her best times , learning new words etc , i was too preoccupied . once i moved she was 4 and a half and i found out a lot more of my older daughters abuse that she had still wanted to protect me from , i was horrified and went for counselling , then i started a new job in july last year which really helped and is a distraction , now the man who abused my girl is only in my head 50 percent of the time instead of nearly 99 per cent , i have recently been to a few funerals and someone gave me some advice about "moving on" and "letting go " as im only hurting myself being bitter , i should try to pity the people who support the abuser as they are the foolish ones , not me !, idid the right thing , they did not ! they are still being fooled by him , i am not ! i have an advantage over them , i know the truth (the real "truth" ) they do not ! my 6 year old is such a joy to me and i dont want her saying to me anymore "mummy why dont you listen to me " when i am so distracted with my bitterness . i want to savour every moment from now on with her and enjoy her while she is still at such a lovely age to be and innocent to all that is bad in the world ! i have also told my disfellowshipped husband to do the same regarding his parents , who dont come to visit him or their beautifull grandaughter who talks of loving god , and jesus and how wonderfull god is etc (she goes to a church of england school ) im glad she does nt talk of doom , gloom and armageddon etc .... i just want to at least try and "move on" and i also want to thank everyone on here who has shown support to me , there arE far to many to mention but you will know who you are , a few kind words from strangers has meant so much when the "real life " friends i had in the congregation once were nowhere to be seen ! i have since found many true friendships and i now want to pity all those people i used to think were my "friends " i will lurk occasionally but im now going to enjoy the summer with my little girl , and we will be going to the beach on friday in my old hometown with my older girl and we will have fun , and if we bump into any witnesses , i will let them know how happy we are now , i often get the "i feel so sorry for you look " off some of them but im not sure if thats because i left the religion or because of what happened to my daughter ! who cares anyway , goodbye for now everyone and thanks for your support and kind words and for teaching me that a lot of people do care , despite what the jws treated me like (most of them ) love to you all and best wishes for the future xxxx love loo loo xxx

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Black Sheep 15 years ago

Thank you for spending some time with us.

I wish you all all the best for your futures.

Enjoy your summer. We are getting our first blast of winter here in NZ, so I am jealous.

(((((Loo Loo)))))

Cheers

Chris

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zzaphod 15 years ago

All the best for you and your family`s future. I hope that your future is a happy one, and you and your family find peace and love.

It has been an awful experience for you all, and although you don`t appear to have found justice, your future is in your hands, and I`m sure you and your family will find happiness.

I`m sure you know that you will always find support here.

All the Best

Paul UK

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