in psychology?...let me save you some money and time....it is PTSD....post traumatic stress disorder....just like in The military....we relive this shit of horrors of control that we never fit into...the horrors linger on especially if we are still in contact with the ones that cause the pain...
just like if one raped or molested had to even see the family of the one who raped him or her each day.....when they are gone...the paid goes away....i so want to leave all of them....but it is hard for me....so hard......dammit.......................oompa.....
but get away...far away if you can...this is expensive professional advice i have received....and they are good...and i believe them