The Deep Blue ( Highdose has a major breakthrough)

by highdose 3 Replies latest jw friends

  • highdose
    highdose

    I wanted to share a sucess story with you all:

    All my life i have been terrifiled of the sea, i was ok if i could keep my feet on the bottom but once out of my depth even by an inch i paniked!

    I would have reocccuring nightmares about drowning or the sea coming to get me. I never saw "Jaws" or films like that so i can't blame them, but i'm sure alot of it was to do with the JW culture i grew up in were i was basicaly taught that everything non JW was out to get me.

    the past two years i have been in Cyprus and i've been in the sea alot. Wether its the repeated exposure to the sea, the yoga i do strengthening my body or the fact that i''ve taken up snorkelling but at some point in the past month... my fear of the sea just went away.

    i didn't really notice it had gone untill one day i found myself hungerily ploughing into the deep blue water ahead of me, curious as to what i would find and suddenly my freind behind me that i was with got scared and insisted on turning back. Seems she didn't like that we had swum right from one cove to another, were in water of 20-30 ft and she was scared of the sea snakes down below us. I watched she franticaly pointing back the way we had come to show she wanted to go back, her eyes big with fear in her snorkel mask and i thought " what is your problem?!!"

    It only occurred to me later what a massive breakthrough this was. A life long fear that has haunted me finaly overcome.

    Now i find myself egarly slicing through the water to get away from the shallows. The wall of deep blue ahead of me now no longer holds fear... it holds excitment and delight!

  • Broken Promises
    Broken Promises

    Cyprus - wow, you are living in a lovely part of the world!

    Congrats on your overcoming of your fear of deep water - just don't go TOO far out, ok??

    Do you think it may have something to do with the anti-depressants you've been taking maybe?

  • highdose
    highdose

    hmm no i don't think its the pills in this case. I think its cos i no longer view the world through JW eyes of fear.

    I saw a parachute display the other week and caught myself thinking " wow that looks like a lot of fun! i'd like to try that!"

    that thought would have never occured to me while a JW

  • Broken Promises
    Broken Promises

    The JWs told us doing stuff like parachuting was wrong because it was showing reckless regard for our lives. I can't remember when I first thought it would be a cool thing to do, but it's something I'd like to try too.

    Enjoy your snorkelling and swimming in the Mediterrean. I live 4 hours from the nearest beach so I envy your ability to go swimming in the sea.

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