An indirect but pertinent response to you regarding unkind treatment by WT leaders:
Far removed from the degradation and vilification used by the Watchtower Society, is what God thinks of his redeemed children, something which could never destroy honest feelings of self-esteem or self-worth. If God knows when a bird falls to the earth, and if he knows the number of hairs on a person's head, then surely his love transcends all weaknesses of the flesh, regardless of earthly position, or which truly Christian association a believer choses.
God cares for those who are held in confused worship implemented by men, and understands when they fall. This love, this lifting up to a personal worth higher than one can imagine, is not known or understood by the Watch Tower leaders. The abusive terms they use are completely foreign to how God the Father and his Son view even the agnostic and the atheist.
The Four Presidents of the Watch Tower Society (Jehovah's Witnesses), Edmond C. Gruss, page 115.