What if I meet someone from School?
from the Awake, Feb 22 2002
Sorry, if it seems rather late in coming, but after only 7 weeks,
i finally just started getting my subscriptions to the "asleep"
I'm also sorry i cannot scan the article, as my scanner doesnt work with Winblows
XP, but a new scanner will be on my desk Sunday, and all will be well.
This is an article about fear. A fear of being found, out in the "publishing" work.
This is a fear i know all to well. and why i decided to post about it.
Growing up as dub drone I remember the fear they are talking about.
I hated working in areas where I knew people. Especially in my home town, Cumberland, RI.
I'd pray to God we would end up elsewhere, anywhere, even a coffee shop
Inevidably we would end up working place where I knew people. This fear also carried
into High School, and there i lived in torment for 4 more years. I never told anyone what i was, but there were other JW's in the school, as well as my sister, and you know, word gets around anyways.
Even after I graduated in 1980 and sought out a life of my own, I would never tell anyone who or what I was. Fear.
Now I ask, why do people of other religions, not seam to have this type of fear? Why does it seem to me a unique thing to JW's? Why make lite of this fear, and even make it sound as like its a form of "persecution" and make it seem wrong to feel this way, as the article so apply points out (hurl).
This fear stayed with me all my life, and fortunately, as i matured, certain aspects no long bothered me. Some still did however. I am a "ham" radio, or amatuer radio operator. I used to belong to radio clubs. I would never tell anyone of my being a JW. I never spoke about it at all. Every job i had, it was the last thing people found out about me, IF they found out at all.
Fear. Torture. "Persecution". Ridicule. Peer Presure.
To say nothing of how mean people can be, especially kids in school.
This is ok to JW's? This is normal? Don't they realize what they are doing to the mind, and body of such fragile young humans? This is a NORMAL part of worship to God?
The caption under the picture in the article says "Mnay youths fear running into fellow students out in the ministry"
I say.....no S@$T Sherlock! Thats normal! It was a normal part of my life, and what wasn't normal was having it stay with me throughout my adulthood.
Till now Now i tell people, I'm an EX JW. Now i have no fear. I'm a free man and I no longer fear.
-Zev
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