HEY I LEFT THE J'S ALMOST TWENTY YEARS AGO, LIKE YOU I HAD MY REASONS FOR JOINING AND MY REASONS FOR LEAVING.
I'VE MATURED ALOT AS YOU TEND TO DO AS YOU GROW OLDER, SO MAYBE I'VE LOST TOUCH WITH ALOT OF MY IDEALISTIC THINKING, INSERCURITIES AND BASIC STUPIDITY.
AS MUCH AS I WOULD LOVE IT, THAT THERE WAS AN AFTER LIFE, WHERE YOU CAN ONCE AGAIN ENJOY THE LOVE OF LOST LOVE ONES, ITS NOT THE OVER WHELMING DRIVING FORCE OF MY LIFE.
BECAUSE OF THAT I THINK I AM A MUCH HAPPIER PERSON, I LIVE FOR NOW, I BASICALLY BELIVE, ALL OPTIONS AN EVIDENCE TAKEN INTO ACCOUNT THAT THIS IS IT NO GOD, NO RELIGION, NO TRUTH.
OF COURSE THAT IS NOT A MANTRA SET IN STONE I AM NOT RIGHT AND YOU ARE WRONG, AND MY GOD IT WOULD BE SO GREAT IF THIS WAS ALL A BIG JOKE!
BUT FOR ME I GET ON WITH IT, NOT LOOKING FOR GOD, NOT LOOKING FOR TRUTH. HAPPY TO JUST WAIT AN SEE.
WHAT ABOUT YOU?