I lived with constant, utterly agonizing pain for decades. The suicide rate is more than 95%. Opiates did not touch the pain. Contrary to public perception, they don't work on certain pain. I turned to Job. Since I was so interested, I read a scholarly book and Carl Jung's Answer to Job. The commentators note that Job legend predates the Hebrew Bible. So an existing story was modified. Also, they said that the opening and closing narratives and the poem of Job proper seem to have different authors and do not meld well.
God is petty and rageful, worse than the Infancy Gospels of Jesus,in the opening. God changes in the poem. I found that the poem was achingly beautiful. There is no indication that any number of daughters are more important than the closing number of daughters with no mourning for any individual person. God conniving with Satan sounds Satanic to me. I achieved greatly. My position allowed me to routinely dine with CEOs and I practiced for the U.S. Senate. I lost all due to illness. The guilt, nurtured in growing up JW, was enormous. I had to be bad. My father scapegoated me. So many people said moronic things to me with the best of intentions. Rebuking them would have been rude. Their comments hurt to my very soul. Reading Job's friends help to Job and Job's reply gave me courage. Deep truth is there.
The poem is achingly beautiful. The poem seems to be more about Job's deep depression b/c of an alienation from God. He seeks some union with God but cannot attain it. The physical symptoms in the poem relate to depression. They are different from the wounds in the introduction. Job is positive in that God does appear out of the whirlwind. Union is achieved. I love the who created the crocodile answer. Some things are beyond human understanding. If you are in agonizing pain, you probably want a Jesus miracle over who created the crocodile answer. Jesus obviously had th epower to cure all afflicted humans and prevent future occurrences. Yet he chose not to do so. I wonder about that.
It took overcoming a lot of resistance to the JWs to pull a nonNWT translation down and actually read it. I needed to read the Bible as a primary source in school. It was freeing to just read and ask my own questions and concerns. So much beauty and controversy is in the Bible yet the Witnesses fit it all into misguided and very simplistic versions. The rank and file is not educated. Some powerful Witnesses are. Others convert from denominatoins where the Bible is read with complexity. Most people would know instinctively that life, let alone God, cannot be reduced so readily. I wonder if the doctrine is purposefully dumbed down.
When I first started here, my view of the Witnesses was that Bethel had too much power, even over things not related to worship or doctrine -- like oral sex, dress, hairstyles,etc. Now I see the cult power more clearly. I just can't believe that they all believe lock and step the stuff addressed in the WT.