what makes me. A liitle reflection from today

by Aussie Oz 8 Replies latest jw friends

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  Aussie Oz

  This has not been a happy day, a stress free day for me as i am sure some of you know.

  But it has given me pause to dig inside to see why i fight to be heard. Why i seemed to have played a part in such a mess with a moderator and other members.

  Going back a number of years in to the WT, one large event occured where i was not able to make my self understood by my accusers. No matter how hard i tried to get my veiw accross, the harder it became to be understood. To the point where in the end I moved.

  Toward the end of my marriage, the last 5 years of it really, i became completly invalid. Nothing i had to say was validated, nothing i felt was important. I struggled like hell to be heard, to have a voice. I was simply never right, never important.

  These days i cannot tolerate being shut down without being able to make reply. I simply must get my point accross. I don't care if it is right or acceptable as much as whether it is heard. Give me no explanation or no way to be heard and i will baulk.

  That happened today. For those who felt torn down, sorry.

  for those who came out batting for me, thankyou so very much.

  tomorrow is a new day...

  oz
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  Murray Smith

  (sizemik - shhh)
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  penny2

  It just seems to happen sometimes that a view gets expressed and it turns into something different from what was intended. Aussie, thanks for posting - just glad you're still here.

  penny
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  whereami

  Don't go nowhere bud. We need you here.
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  mamalove

  I understand what you are saying and support you completely. You deserve to be heard and validated no matter if people agree or not. I am not sure what happened earlier, but you have always been a valued poster and I look forward to more from you!
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  wobble

  Wot Mamalove said.

  And if you want to be heard Aussie Oz, for Chrissakes speak up !

  this old fart is gettin' hard of hearing !
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  wasblind

  " But it has given me pause to dig inside to see why i fight to be heard "

  I hope you stay Aussie, So you can be heard, with so many view points

  we will get into heated discussions at times, but this ain't the KH ,

  different views are expected. Like many others I read your post, your

  contributions let others no they are not alone in the things they suffer

  can't post much today busy day ahead. I hope today turn out much better for you
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  Terry

  Basic Freedom 101: we have a say but nobody has to agree.

  We listen to others or we don't...but, we let them have their say.

  This is a family. Former Jehovah's Witnesses have been shut down and shut out.

  Everybody is worthy here and everyone has a voice.

  My rule number one is this: IF I'M NOT WILLING TO BE WRONG I CAN'T EVER LEARN ANYTHING.

  The only way we learn is to give up something we hold to be true and admit it is wrong.

  How will that happen if I don't listen to somebody who is saying something I don't like and don't want to hear?

  Love ya, Aussie!
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  Simon

  I think these are common issues with people who've had the full WTS experience.

  Life is easier when we stop looking for things that remind us of the bad times though. When you feel something is generating the same feelings you need to step back and say "this isn't really the same as that" (inside voice of course!).

  Easier said that done but the more you do it the more it helps separate things and get over the bad experience without being reminded about it so much.