Its becoming something of a tradition for me. Every time I've come back to this board in the last 3 year its because of something major has changed. A milestone of sorts.
And this is one too. My uncle died. Man who was instrumental in me ever becoming a witness when I was a teen. In fact, he was the one who swayed good portion of the family too. Truth to be told after I left borg I didn't want to have anything to do with him. I was pissed, big time. (and with a good reason) That would be about 13 years ago,
Over the years that became a habit. I didn't want to have anything to do with him or anyone who was inside. You could say I grown accustomed to shut some people out of my life and throw away the key. I guess I didn't let them shun me, I shunned them instead.
Today I was talking to my mother, also thankfully out, now she tells me for the first time, every time he came to my parents place he kept asking about me and how I was doing. Now I feel like a dick.
Did I go overboard with this? Was he bothered by everything I went through after becoming one of them? Was it call of conscience? Curiosity? All of the above? Don't know. But it did make me think. Reality is after leaving borg I build my life the way I wanted it to be and I'm proud of what I achieved. But today I'm feeling numb. Truth is I should be pissed but I'm not. My mother on the other hand felt like going to his funeral and spitting on his coffin. I had major argument with her as result of it. I know she is just saying it, would never do that. But you get the sense, there was lots of it there I cannot put in couple of paragraphs. On the other hand it doesn't matter anyway I cannot change it anymore. After all it made me who I am today. But still I'm left with a thought.