I don't believe it!

by ballistic 7 Replies latest jw friends

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  ballistic

  I got reading that JW board, the one quoted in the post about Fred Hall. First of all I was gaging some of it was just stupid.

  Then I read some other stuff and thought - GOD HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN TAKEN IN?

  I keep coming back to this over and over, I can't understand how normal thinking human beings as I was can be taken in by these lies and fantasies. I thought I was getting it out of my system, but every now and again, I feel stupid about the fact I believed all that crap and then it turns to anger.
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  Doc_jedd

  Me too Ballistic Im always sayin to myself "what was I thinking?"
  Ive kicked my self in the ass so many times my leg has developed another joint!................Jedd
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  Joyzabel

  Boy Ballistic, can I ever relate to what you are saying.

  After 8 months I'm beginning to feel the shock of it all beginning to wear off. It sure takes time.

  j2bf
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  picosito

  My sympathies, Ballistic. Hope you don't go completely ballistic on us.

  MY anger has a lot to do with how the WT taught me the truth about all the lies promulgated by the Catholic Church, so I had a time of it, for years, accepting how the Catholic Church is a big fraud and how it affected ME.

  They did not tell me the truth about all the WT lies: "The Truth", so now I'm going thru it all over again, just not as bad, because the Catharsis was re the Catholic Church, and I kinda got used to it. Now I realize ALL Organized Religion (contributions, rules, regulations, you "should," ad nauseam) is lo tov.

  So, BELIEVE IT!!! As long as you're alive, you can gain understanding, wisdom, and love for yourself and others even though you "can't believe it," by "believing it."

  Welcome to the "I don't believe it" club, Ballistic. If there is a good God "up there" he/she/it will have compassion on us, because we want to know what's "true" more than belong to some self-worshipping "Organization."

  Isn't that the essence of what Jesus laid down for us?
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  Bang

  Candidate: I kinda know there is a God. He can do all this, so I'd like to know more.

  Motivated facilitator: Yes your right, and you've come to the right place, we know about Him, just look at the others (scoff scoff).

  Candidate: I wonder if I have to simply give up everything, and help those in need as best I can, like He said, or can I just stick with the rules and receive His favour, if they're the right rules.

  Motivated facilitator: We know the rules, do as we say, He told us. Stick with us and you'll be on the right track. See how wicked everyone else is.

  Candidate: Yes, your right (forgetting the basics). I'm satisfied now (I have enough).

  Motivated facilitator: You see; just don't think of other things anymore, You are important, God loves You ... see?
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  BATHORY

  " I feel stupid about the fact I believed all that crap and then it turns to anger".

  .....heaven holds a sence of wonder,
  and im wanting to believe that i could,
  but the rage in me subsides.......

  **Delierium** silence
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  expatbrit

  but every now and again, I feel stupid about the fact I believed all that crap and then it turns to anger.

  You could view that positively, as evidence that your inner safety alarms are now working well.

  Expatbrit
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  WildHorses

  Ballistic, I was thinking along the lines of this myself just last night.

  My story and conclusion: When I first started my study with the JW it was because of a prayer. I have been involved with many a different religion, and I knew they all couldn't be right, so I sat a prayed one day and asked that God send the right one to me. Looking back on this I understand why he sent them. He was trying to tell me that there is no TRUE religion. They are all false, but God knows I am hard headed at times and I have to see things for myself.

  The final straw came while I was reading my Bible one day and came across 1st John 2:27. It opened my eyes to religion in general.

  Lets start with verse 24: Therefore let that abide in you which you heard from the beginning. If what you heard from the beginning abides in you, you also will abide in the Son and in the Father. 25And this is the promise that He has promised us--eternal life.
  26These things I have written to you concerning those who try to deceive you. 27But the anointing which you have received from Him abides in you, and you do not need that anyone teach you; but as the same anointing teaches you concerning all things, and is true, and is not a lie, and just as it has taught you, you will[5] abide in Him.

  So see, it really is a personal thing between God and Man, and God will never mislead us. Man will, for his own desire.

  Lilacs

  I don't want someone in my life I can live with. I want someone in my life I can't live without.