leaving_quietly this is why I am I have been staying away from the online publications. We used to have one, or at least the family did, but I it got sold at a yard sale years back. I remember it on my dads shelf, blue and daunting at least for my small eyes at the time. I never got into reading it other than a skim here and there. I had mentioned to another member in a private PM that I want to use it to some personal study.
I had heard if was written in large part by Ray Franz, so it makes it more intriguing, forbidden almost. :)
Bottom line is I am in a period of personal study, questioning what I have grown up with and am the type of person who needs to do his own personal study in order to come to the conclusions I think I am looking for.