Ramblings of a tired, worn out, book and literture "Pusher"
I am stuck in Limbo, reading the Watchtower of February 15, 2012, wondering where I went wrong. How come I am not the happiest person on Earth? Why don't I have the rivers of joy, promised by the CO, for my lifetime of Field Service? Why am I starting to feel bitter towads hipocrites and liars now, things I tolerated in the past, mild evils I ignored, bit my tongue when outspoken experts of the Bible, talked out of their ass. Listening to hours of self-appointed maritial experts (after six divorces, he was an expert) was enough to make me drink. Experts with broken lives, helping and healing the wicked World's broken familes, in between coffee breaks. Who is to blame for my malovent attidude towards those who claim to have Jehovah's direction, but fail to back up this claim?
Did I forget to tell you, in two paragraphs the lesson refered to "more preaching, quality preaching, greater service, more hours, talking about your faith, door to door, telephone talking, elders doing more, elders trying to imitate the fine examples of COs ect........ Your field service days, where planned in advance or did you wing it? Are you a gambler, who showed up to the arrangements without a partner? Masochistic type, your the sister we dumped all the insane publishers with? Please help me with a redo of M&Ms "Loose Yourself In The Moment" please!
"Loose yourself in the Field Service, the door to door work, telephone preaching work,
you will never regret it, no regrets of it, you got to loose yourself in the "service"