Hi everyone. How goes it?
Today I (disfellowshipped gay boy) went to a JW funeral with my dad (ex-elder and not yet disfellowshipped supposed apostate), my brother (who wants nothing more to do with the org) and my mum (who was never interested anyway). Well we had a great time. This was the first time I have seen all of them in over a year in some sort of congre'gay'tional setting, although we only went to the crem. Sod going to the Kingdumb hall.
Anyway, we rather embarassingly pulled up in our sheddy car and got out. I smiled at everyone and saw and made definite eye contact. I did not want to be controversial and i REALY liked the JW whose funeral it was. He was a lovely man, hence why i wanted to go. Well, my family was greeted but i wasnt. Lol. However the sister whose dad it was looked at us all and thanked us then looked at me and kind of gestured and facialy explained that she was glad to see me there and thanked me for coming. I managed to get that from a split second look. I also got a smile from 2 other brothers. After the service which was incredibly short, we didnt get a chance to speak to any of the family which was gutting. Nontheless we walked back to the car and i decided that i cant be bothered with all this avoidance shit and feeling bad about what i (supposedly) did. So i walked straight through the group of brothers, head held high smiling at them. One of them winked at me which made me feel great. He is a nice brother too.
We then went home. Weird day. Still, it puts it all into perspective in my mind: Today i was surrounded by people who were my closest friends this time last year. Now they wont even speak to me. The people in this organisation are so mind blowingly brainwashed. Its just insane what they will do to others who have a different opinion or choose a different course to theirs. Goodness me! Not only that but in so doing they disregard the very meaning of Christianity, to show love to others. Unbelievable and VERY sad!
Tim x