***NIGHTMARES***

by zev 6 Replies latest jw friends

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  zev

  When I was a dub growing up, I remember the nightmares....
  Repeated, and frequent...

  The terrible feeling of dreaming that "Armageddon" had come, and that destruction was happening all around me.

  When I woke up, I would lie perfectly still, and do nothing. Not even a muscle twitch, and just "listen" for a familiar sound, to tell me I was indeed still alive, and still on the planet.

  And the fear those dreams put in me, I can still remember 25-30 years later.

  How many of you, growing up in, or even coming in as adults had a similar experience?

  -Zev
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  teenyuck

  zev, I had similar dreams and experiences.

  I can recall that I woke up and touched my self, feeling for the imperfections I knew were there...I was hoping I was in "paradise" and I was now perfect. I was ALWAYS disappointed!

  I had dreams similar to yours...hearing noises and thinking "it" had come, or happened while I was sleeping. Then hearing a familiar sound of the furnace or toilet flushing and I realized it had not happened.

  I don't dream that now, however, since coming to this board, I have been having confrontational dreams where the JW's and I really get into it. When I wake up I try to figure out if it were real...very weird.
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  Pierced Angel

  HI Zev,

  I had many nightmares that would start with men in camo coming around to each house taking by force any witnesses and I would see them heading towards our house. I would try to hide, but would always be found hiding in the basement. When they got all of us witnesses together, we'd be standing outside (sort of like nazi camps) and really dark clouds with the loudest lightening ever heard would start rolling in fast. I just knew it was Armageddon and that I wouldn't make it. In my sleep I'd start crying and praying to Jehovah to just forgive and please save me. I was terrified and it seemed like I would pray for hours in fear.
  Even when I'd wake up (I had similar dreams for years, every so often) I'd be feeling sick and upset for the morning/day.

  I haven't had any other dreams like that since I found out the truth about the trooth.

  Anne
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  ofcmad

  Same here-
  Dreams that armageddon had occurred and thinking I was waking up in the "New System".
  My parents used to take magazines, wrap them in tinfoil and stick them in the ciderblocks in our basement. This was incase the US would say that reading WT material was outlawed. Of course, NOW I see that as crazy.. and now I wonder why they never hid the Bible. I would figure that would be more important.

  ofcmad
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  NameWithheld

  Way ditto here - my more frequent nightmare was being harrashed by 'demons' (Oh they're everywhere!) but I had the constant fear the the big "A" would show up right in the middle of a wanking session - and god would for sure zap me! I always had worked out how long after my 'secret sin' I'd have to wait (praying for forgivness of course) before I might be worthy to survive the big "A" - it ranged from a few hours to days Of course once (or often before!) I'd served my 'sentence' I'd repeat the crime!
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  writerpen

  Through my entire life I've had the recurring dream of Armageddon. Just a few of those times did I actually survive through the destruction - all other times I was destroyed as well. Even after leaving the organization, I still have this dream. Crazy, isn't it?
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  out4good3

  I remember when my wife first started studying, this after a long absence of growing up "around" the truth but not making it her "own". As time went by more and more things in the house became channels that allowed demons in and had to be gotten rid of. My collection of vampire books that she bought...gone. "R' rated movies..gone. Smurfs...gone. Cabbage patch dolls and anything that had the Proctor and Gamble Logo with the crescent moon and 13 stars.......gone. All of these things she claimes gave her nightmares all of a sudden. The absurdity of the logic behind how she justified these decisions never ended.

  In time she realized that it wasn't her conscious she was acting on, but the two pioneer sisters she was studying with. When she says things like "such and such a thing will never be allowed in my house because the WT warns against it" I remind her that this is my house too and if I want it I will have it till such time as the WT starts paying the bills around here. It's all about control.....