The realities of life are starting to set in for 'Joliette.' (Why doesn't Jehovah come and take my pain away)?

by Joliette 5 Replies latest jw friends

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  Joliette

  1. Yesterday I get a call from my fed aid advisor at the University that I go to...I owe the school about $1200. I can regsiter or continue on with my education until I pay them off. I just tried to apply for credit card to pay for the debt. I didnt get approved for any of the credit cards cause guess what: I aint got no credit. Brother and Sister Johnson were my credit card. Now the gravy train has ended for me. Why did I take it for granted. I've been getting into a lot of trouble with money lately. In fact, most of my friends and family here in Milwaukee are in debt. I'm gonna have to get a second job cause I have to pay this back, along with my rent, electric, cell phone, internet.
  2. I'm at my freakin whits end with my job. I'm in the finality of the finality with dealing these wack ass people at my job. The people that I work with I honestly cannot stand. I dont hate them but I never have to see them again in life. EVER. I have never worked with a bunch of money hungry, hopeless, worthless group of people ever in life. The reality is that I have to find another job. And the thought of working at another job with another group of hopeless, worthless group of people scares the living shit outta me. Even though we act like we like eachother, secretly deep down inside we all hate eachother. And my coworkers have no respect for me. None. What have I ever done to them? They might act nice to my face, but I know they have very little respect for me.
  3. I promised myself that I was gonna stay off the computer this summer and really get out and start working out. I've gained weight since I moved out of my parents house in 2009 (I was already overweight before) but now I have really gained weight. Its so hard to get into a rountine of working out. A lot of JW's and XJW's have gained weight over the years, and there are A LOT of overweight people here in Milwaukee. My mom constantly complains about people being overweight, but especially me. I keep promising myself that I'm gonna workout but I never get around to it. And dont even get me started on eating habits. I eat fast food almost everday.
  4. I have some health issues that I need to deal with, but I do not have insurance. I have 11 cavitives that I need removed, but I do not have dental insurance.

  I thought that by now, in 2012, that the new world was gonna be here, but I would have never guessed that it would be like this. Ever. I guess I just have to deal with the issues of life. I do not have children yet, but I know if I do decide to have children, life is gonna get a lot more challenging. Man, I can't even imagine at this point. What happened to the new system of things? No more crime, wars, no more money woes, no more disease, no more worries? Jehovah, if you are up there, you suck! Oh, wait, its all my fault cause I made my 'choices' right. You suck Jehovah. #teamsatan.
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  yadda yadda 2

  Sorry to hear about your troubles sweety. You are young, they will pass. Keep the perspective.

  I know it sounds flip, but life could be a lot worse. You are not starving, you drink clean water, and have a nice bed to sleep in, you are not living in a war-torn, famine country or a drug addict or alcoholic. You have people who love you, like your mother. There are many millions of little children and people who would think you live in paradise.

  Don't blame Jehovah or Satan or whatever. Live in the real world. Take responsibility for your own decisions and try to make the best of your life from here on in. Get motivated, lose that weight and feel confident and great again (you are pretty), and find a nice boyfriend and plan to have your own warm family. Friends and work colleagues won't fill your soul. Start hunting for a better job or enrol to start studying.

  You are suffering now but don't lose the big picture. You have the power to reduce that suffering quickly. Happiness is simply an absence of suffering. Don't let it get worse and don't play the blame game. Live above the line baby, take responsibility, don't live below the line (blaming, regretting, self-pitying, inaction, etc).

  Do it!
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  Iamallcool

  Joliette, if you have any skills or things of value that you can barter with any dentist in your area, try craigslist and explain your dental situation in the bartering section. Your teeth WILL affect your health in the long run, so try to get that done first. Good Luck! Please avoid fast food the best as you can. Try Subway or Blimpies instead.
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  Black Sheep

  And the thought of working at another job with another group of hopeless, worthless group of people scares the living shit outta me.

  Really????

  You know them already????
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  Butterflyleia85

  aww i totally feel for you girlie! i have to say reality of life sucks sometimes and especially when all we have is ourselves. but seriously you are doing better then most! i know it seems overwhelming now but i can see you are trying hard to servive and make the best of your life. with that attitude you will suceed. don't give up! you are renting right? if so show your payments you been making to a loan or credit card you can usually get it. and as far as the financial aid they usually don't do that, usually, i would be upset too. financial aid is suppost to help you not leave you in debt. most the time the debt isn't asked til the end of graduation when you've found a full time job. and even then you have a ton of years to pay it off with low interest. the only advise i have is keep fighting them and look up ways to extend your payment period with what you can afford now. don't let finances bother you, you do what you can and keep looking to the future with graduation and that awesome career you always wanted ahead! as far as trying to loss weight and eat healthy, don't beat yourself up, temptation is always lerking around every corner and conveniance is todays way of living for most. use it all to your advantage but keeping control and make right choices. i'm sure that just setting aside time and making a list of you favorite fast foods and choicing the healthy items will help a ton. take small steps. and ignore the feeling of asking yourself am i lossing weight? just keep saying i am being healthy when you take that step of eating healthy! being positive goes along way. and when you have a lil more time you can continue incorporating small things in your daily lifestyle that add to your healthy path. always give yourself create is the key. if you mess up, shrug it off and eat an apple. ;) a year from now you wont regret it one bet! i wish you the best! i totally remember being in your shoes. you can do it! if it takes a second job just think when you look back on this moment and see all the hard work, you will be that much stronger and that much more confidant in all you do!
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  perfect1

  if you are in repayment of student loans you are not in school. Go back to school, study something practical, and finish it at any cost.

  1200 is nothing once you have a decent job.

  There is no point torturing yourself trying to pay it off at a low wage.

  Obama has done a lot to improve the student loan system- take advantage of it.

  Its an investment in yourself and your future, more important than any THING you could ever own.

  I dont know your whole story.

  The American Dream is based on debt. Thats how its done. Dont be scared.

  I got a BA and my cousin got a car. Same price tag.

  Stupid people are everywhere self respect is what matters. Suck it up.