Journal entry

by lostinthought 3 Replies latest jw friends

  • lostinthought
    lostinthought

    Here is a journal entry I made in August 2011 when I first started waking up...

    I finally think I can admit my feelings in writing today. Maybe I should blame it on being a pessimist, maybe it's the truth. As I'm writing this I've got a few tears in my eyes. Even though I hate feeling this way, I have no where to turn. Here goes:

    1. For the last year I have realizedi want a family

    2. If I have children I don't want to raise them witnesses

    3. I don't really believe what the society teaches

    4. I can't leave, if I did I would loose my family andfriends

    5. Bethel is slave labor, I don't like working

    i have been journal writing at least monthly for the last 16 years. I find it quite therapeutic.

  • free @ last
    free @ last

    Dear Lostinthought,

    You do have places to turn to. Just the fact that you have hundreds, if not thousands posting and reading here means that your heartfelt expressions are not falling on deaf ears. Keeping a journal is a great way of working through your thoughts and emotions. Plus it takes discipline and dedication to keep it going for so many years. Lots of us here can relate to what you're going through. Most of us survive the painful growing pains of leaving the Borg and some of us even thrive because of having to learn the survival skills required to plan and effect an escape from it. You are loved and understood here.

    Chin up, f@l

    (PMing you in a few)

  • MC RubberMallet
    MC RubberMallet

    I wish I'd had wrote my thoughts down... good idea.

  • free @ last
    free @ last

    OMG!!! 'heartfelt expressions'

    still sounding like a dub

    **sigh*

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