Damned if you do, damned if you don't

by StephaneLaliberte 3 Replies latest watchtower beliefs

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  StephaneLaliberte

  Lately, I have been seriously considering a slow fade out from the JW. Obviously, I have family in the JW and I don't want to cause them trouble. But then, lately, some of the family that is not JW is studying and even asking me to study with them!

  I personnally still believe in God, Christ, Salvation, Ransom Sacrifice, even Paradis on earth. Therefore, I'd be more then happy to review these believes in the bible with them. But then, there are other things that I don't believe: 144 000 being a real number; Only the anoted should partake; the WT is the only true religion; do not use any blood transfusion; 1914; etc.

  Suddenly, I find myself in this impossible position where I realized that as long as I am known as a JW, I am not even able to preach the bible whole heartedly as it could get me disfellowshipped if the non jw talk to any jw about it.

  I'll try to forget about it for now, but sooner or later, something's gonna break.
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  Comatose

  you have hit the tipping point friend. Just read Crisis of Conscience. How can you go in service and bring people into a false religion? How can you be a JW and not go in service? They dont mix.
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  StephaneLaliberte

  I already read the two books from Brother Franz. I'd say the reading was very interesting, but odly enough, must of the things he wrote about simply confirmed things I already knew.

  Its such a shame he passed away before I had the courage to read his writtings.... I knew about him a while back, but I was told so much bad things about him that I ignored his existance for too long... now its too late.

  Anyways... I find myself in a spot where I like my JW friends and family, still want to preach the bible, but can't preach the WT's version anymore.

  So, until I find a happy place, I am not free!
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  Vidiot

  ecan6 - "I already read the two books from Brother Franz. I'd say the reading was very interesting, but oddly enough, must of the things he wrote about simply confirmed things I already knew."

  It's a rare thing when somebody becomes inactive/fader/XJW and doesn't know most of these things by then, but it does happen (http://www.jehovahs-witness.net/watchtower/beliefs/253212/1/Suspicious).

  For most of us, the reassuring part is discovering that you aren't nuts, that your issues with the WTS are legitimate, and that all of your concerns are shared with literally thousands of other people.