one of the most instructive books i have read in my post-christian life, is called "god's chinese son" by jonathon spence.
it's the story of hong xiuquan, who became the founder of the taiping christian religion in china - and forced to fight for his/it's existence, came close to overthrowing the qing (manchu) dynasty..
it's an instructive story, because xiuquan after having studied the bible with missionaries, fell ill and in the time that he wavered between life and death, became convinced that he was the son of god.
here is my lesson --- how often, christian zeal, and conviction of a close (filial) relationship with god grows out of illness.
what do you think ?????