Why I can never escape abuse... part 5 The final

by KariOtt 7 Replies latest watchtower child-abuse

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  KariOtt

  Now onto my brother. No suprise that he's an alcoholic like I am. He has never really liked me. When I was 2 months old he went after me with garden sheers. When I was 2 he hit me in the head with a baseball bat and I got in trouble. When I was 3 he pushed me off the porch and my chin was cut and I got 4 stiches. Between ages 7 and 12 I was in the ER at least once a week with some sort of injury. When I was 14 he broke my nose because he thought I took to long in the bathroom. I can't tell you how many broken bones and stiches he was responsible for.

  My sister is just like my brother. She takes it a bit further with emotional abuse. Heck she even convinced a judge to grant a perminate restraining order/no contact order. I never kept my son from loving her or my brother for that matter. Since she saw a fertility expert she was able to finally able to get pregnant. She now has 2 boys of her own. I have only seen my nephews a grand total of 15 minutes. 1 is 17 and the other is 14. I felt it wasn't my place to decide for my son who he could love or not. I never said anything negative about her until my son was 19 and asked why his Aunt hated me.

  When I joined JWN I had been a member when a few of you went over the line calling my a lier, a mole and a lot of other very hurtful things. I was real close to never visit this forum again. I asked another member for help and they got intouch with Simon who told 1 person in particlar to knock it off. I didn't know Simon was the moderator then. Simontold 1 member to knock it off with the name calling. I assumed Simon removed most of the offending posts. I have also been chewed out by others because of 2 other posts I made.

  Believe it or not this 5 part story is the short version. I know my story may be unbelieveable to some and you may think I an lying. I am not. I do know that there are others out there whose biography is a lot worse than mine. I learned that in AA.
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  KariOtt

  Since just about everyone I have come in contact with has abuse me in someway. That is why I feel I will never escape. Its like I have a neon sigh that says feel free to abuse.
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  jgnat

  I was a member of a divorce recovery group for many years. After listening to many, many stories, I concluded that anyone can be fooled in to a bad relationship. The difference is in whether the person stays or leaves after their personhood is threatened. Refusing to accept the abuse, that's the difference. You've done it a few times already.

  You deserve personal privacy. Sign back up on to facebook and tell your husband to get used to it.

  You need autonomy. Find some work out of the house.
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  KariOtt

  I'm working on it.
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  LisaRose

  Well, I have to say your stories do seem quite extreme, but that being said, I like to give people the benefit of the doubt. I actually have known people that were abused in the extreme, it is not unheard of. It seems strange that if you were in the emergency room so often that it was not reported to Child Protective Services. I don't know where you grew up, but in the US, such a thing would very likely be investigated. But I will leave it at that and say I am glad you are here, and I am sorry you have had to suffer such abuse, no one should be subjected to that.

  I do think of the Watchtower as an abuser. They do seem to attract people who are hurting and looking for help. At first it seems like a good thing, instant friends and direction in your life. But just like an abusive spouse, they become controlling and abusive. Don't play by their rules, and they disfellowshipped you and cut you off from friends and family. That is very abusive to me.

  So again, I am glad you are here, I hope it helps you.

  Lisa Rose
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  jgnat

  <---- cheering from the sidelines.
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  James Jackson

  Hey Kari,

  I have been following all your posts, and feel for you! You easily get fustrated and I understand. Your brain is "going a mile a minute", slow down, take a deep breath. Now, how can we help you?
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  Bruja-del-Sol

  Read your whole story and I feel so sorry for you. Just want to give you a hug and hope and wish you will find some peace and quiet in your life soon. It's about time, noone should be put through so much strain and suffering.

  Here's my virtual hug for you