perhaps i'm getting a little battle weary but i'm beginning to understand why certain long-time posters have bowed out from this forum and taken a long break from participating
i've been here a while but don't post very often - when i do, it's usually because something has driven or inspired me
i recently posted a genuine response only to get a (to me) sarcastic swipe back - this upset me somewhat and has had me reflecting on it over recent days
as an xjw, i feel compassion for those that are still entombed in the borganisation, but my net is cast wider and i want to make a difference to everyone by the small things i choose to say or do
i get the feeling though that at times i am within a louder group of individuals who are on a mission of destruction of the 'watchtower' - albeit understandable considering the extreme and negative effects the wt has had on us and millions of other's lives
however, the focus i personally want is on helping individuals rather than destroying the mega-pseudo-theocratic-book-publishing company
i understand that these two things can have a comfortable juxtaposition, but the hate-filled drive is wearing me down - am i alone in this ?